Last night we had a Renew board meeting.
I've written before on past board meetings we've had.
I know it sounds twisted, but I actually look forward to these board meetings.
Last night was no exception.
Before we jumped into decisions that needed to be made and tasks that needed to get ticked off the agenda I started our time by asking the question, "How are we doing - really?"
One of us shared the deep sense of woundedness over feelings of betrayal in a relationship.
One of us shared the difficulty of extending forgiveness to someone who has hurt them badly.
One of us shared that life feels like a rollercoaster - so many highs and lows in a short amount of time.
One of us shared that life seems so difficult right now.
One of us shared the feeling of purposelessness in their job (thankfully that wasn't me...)
What I thought would be a ten minute conversation ended up being an hour and a half of sharing from the depths.
It was difficult to hear.
As hard as it was to hear all the junk that's going on in each of our lives I found myself thanking God for the privilege of walking authentically through life with these guys.
I found myself thinking Man, I wouldn't want it any other way!
I am thankful that it isn't a board that is all business - that it's much bigger than that.
It's sharing who we are with each other in the context of attempting to lead Renew faithfully and humbly and courageous and wisely. What an honor.
Then we finally jumped into the to-do list.
We reflected on all the many ways God has shown himself faithful at Renew in the last six months.
And we bagged on each other, laughing so hard our sides were splitting and we were crying.
And we ended the evening on our knees in prayer spending time solely thanking God for all that he had done, is doing and will continue to do in our lives and through this newly forming faith community of Renew.
What a privilege that we can cry in the midst of deep heartbreak and cry in the midst of such incredible laughter all in the same board meeting as we deal with kingdom issues.
I am so grateful for these guys!